Blackwell's Adoption Journey

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Wrestling with grief and joy.

We decided to go to the aquarium today.  We want to hit the weekend market, but we checked it out last night, and it was SO overwhelming with Norah in the backpack (or sometimes off and running) and Sam not enjoying the walk or crowds.  We did not have the energy to attempt that again today.  Norah has really taken to Dave, and finds safety in him.  I am loving how they interact together!  Last night and today, she did not want me holding her, only David. 
Norah's visa was ready yesterday!  We were surprised by how quick it was ready!  Holt told us to prepare to wait at least 3-4 days before it would be done.  Even then we had to book flexible fare tickets, just in the event it was not ready, and we may have to change flights.  The good news of potentially going home early was great.  So Dave called United to see about moving our flights to tomorrow, and alas, no can do.  Apparently flexible fare means nothing.  We paid lots of extra $$ for  flexible fare flights, and to actually change the tickets, they wanted more $!  Like, alot more.  So BS United Airlines.  You just robbed us. 


We had a rough day today.  Alot of grieving, and having fits when we had to correct her.  Last night we were up with her several times, so tired parents + angry kid +there is nothing to do in the hotel so lets go to the crowded aquarium + only wants to eat snacks and sugar= unpleasantness.  I cried a little today, because it seemed she hated me at several times in the day.  I know this is TOTALLY normal, and shame on me for being offended by it.  But preparing myself by reading books and other people's stories, and then actually experiencing the reality of it are two different things.  David did wonderful with her, and was a huge encouragement to me.  We know that we were meant to adopt, and she is the most perfect gift from the Father!  There will be ups and downs in this journey, and we signed up for all of it!!